I Just Want To Know Already

I'm so over this wait it isn't even funny! This is the worst part of the TWW, the couple days before you can test. For us with infertility it's even worse, it's like another disappointment looming ahead. Part of me doesn't even want to test because the results are always the same, negative! So I sit here, pumping my body full of synthetic progesterone and wading through symptoms in my head. Are they caused by the medication? Is it AF trying to make her appearance? Is it all in my head? In 5 days I will know for sure, another disappointment or our miracle!